dear god, why is it whenever I try so hard to get on with my life. You place dreams of her when I'm asleep. it was so vivid. everything seemed so real. it seemed like as though I was really talking to her again. how I wish I could go on sleeping forever to know what will happen.

today was a day. it seemed like it was gonna rain, yet it didn't, at first. I prayed, for it to rain if whatever I dreamt of her last night, was really by God. to let it rain and let me know that it's really God who made me dream of her. it started raining within a few minutes later. and after raining for abit. it stopped. I wonder if its a coincidence. but from the past. I've learnt that such things really do happen. the impossible is possible again.

I wish the impossible would be possible, again.

nothing much I've been doing over the past 2 days. been sick as a puppy. sometimes being a puppy is better than a human. all you ever need to care is just to be a good dog.

everytime I try so hard to move on. dreams of her would come back to haunt me again. why why why? God is it really You telling me that I should wait for her? is it really that way? I have so many questions Father lord. please answer me. please tell me. WHY WHY WHY?!

sigh. I want to move on. but she's on the back of my mind and my dreams all the time.

I don't know what to blog. I'm simply rambling here.

answer me Father lord. please. I can't comprehend anything that You're telling me anymore. amen.